[She looks up sharply, at that, to stare at him, caught off guard. He would rather what than what? Did he seriously just tell her that? Her own safety wasn't worth insanity, no matter how important she supposedly was to anyone else.
She knows certain people, of course, that would. The senshi would, in a heartbeat. And she knows certain people in Adstringendum would, like Toushirou, or Castiel, but Nathaniel was different. She didn't want to even begin to focus on why he was different, because it was stupid, and thinking that way was stupid, but he was different, and being told that almost made her want to cry.
Luckily, Rei is Rei, and it takes a lot more than being told you were worth saving via insanity to make her cry, but she resumes her focus on the PCD, quiet. She doesn't know what to say to that save for a murmured:]
I can't make everyone happy. Someone is going to get hurt no matter what I do.
[And Rei tears her gaze away from her PCD to stare at him.]
I haven't told Usagi half of what I've been doing with the force. I can't tell Toushirou half of what I talk about with Castiel because he would try to kill him. And you have no idea what this is going to do to Cas when he finds out that I've helped you try to summon the Animus.
[If she tells, she hurts people. If she doesn't tell, she hurts people. Rei can't maintain all of the dearest people she has and keep everyone happy and whole without hurting someone else, not in this world. Nathaniel isn't the only one who is left out.]
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Date: 2011-12-30 07:13 am (UTC)She knows certain people, of course, that would. The senshi would, in a heartbeat. And she knows certain people in Adstringendum would, like Toushirou, or Castiel, but Nathaniel was different. She didn't want to even begin to focus on why he was different, because it was stupid, and thinking that way was stupid, but he was different, and being told that almost made her want to cry.
Luckily, Rei is Rei, and it takes a lot more than being told you were worth saving via insanity to make her cry, but she resumes her focus on the PCD, quiet. She doesn't know what to say to that save for a murmured:]
I can't make everyone happy. Someone is going to get hurt no matter what I do.
[And Rei tears her gaze away from her PCD to stare at him.]
I haven't told Usagi half of what I've been doing with the force. I can't tell Toushirou half of what I talk about with Castiel because he would try to kill him. And you have no idea what this is going to do to Cas when he finds out that I've helped you try to summon the Animus.
[If she tells, she hurts people. If she doesn't tell, she hurts people. Rei can't maintain all of the dearest people she has and keep everyone happy and whole without hurting someone else, not in this world. Nathaniel isn't the only one who is left out.]