[Rei is quiet, as Nathaniel speaks, watching with a difficult to read expression. She tries to keep herself more or less neutral, but her heart twists at the thought of making him worried, and how cruel it had been.
It's difficult, for Rei, to relinquish her own responsibility for her own ability to keep herself safe. She is her own person. There's no need to rely on anyone else to keep her safe. Her entire livelihood is wrapped up in being the blunt force behind the senshi. If Mars can't take care of herself, no one can.
She doesn't know what to say for a moment or two, caught off guard, before she sinks slightly into the couch.]
A soldier follows orders when they have to follow them.
[Quietly, and Rei's eyes are fixated on her PCD as she turns it over and over in her hands.]
I'm sorry I hurt you, but I didn't have a choice. If I had told anyone, it would have endangered the mission, and -- I wanted to tell you, and Cas, but I couldn't. You have -- no idea how hard I fought to want to tell people, but I couldn't. And even if I had told you, in secrecy, you both would have insisted on coming along, and you couldn't. The people in charge of the mission don't trust either of you. No matter how much I do.
[Her nails tap against the screen of her PCD a little nervously before she finally looks over at him, clearly upset, but firm, at the same time.]
Toushirou would rather die himself than put me in any amount of danger that I couldn't handle. And if I thought I couldn't handle it, I would have told you regardless of what I was ordered. I wouldn't go on a suicide mission and not tell anyone I care about.
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Date: 2011-12-30 06:33 am (UTC)It's difficult, for Rei, to relinquish her own responsibility for her own ability to keep herself safe. She is her own person. There's no need to rely on anyone else to keep her safe. Her entire livelihood is wrapped up in being the blunt force behind the senshi. If Mars can't take care of herself, no one can.
She doesn't know what to say for a moment or two, caught off guard, before she sinks slightly into the couch.]
A soldier follows orders when they have to follow them.
[Quietly, and Rei's eyes are fixated on her PCD as she turns it over and over in her hands.]
I'm sorry I hurt you, but I didn't have a choice. If I had told anyone, it would have endangered the mission, and -- I wanted to tell you, and Cas, but I couldn't. You have -- no idea how hard I fought to want to tell people, but I couldn't. And even if I had told you, in secrecy, you both would have insisted on coming along, and you couldn't. The people in charge of the mission don't trust either of you. No matter how much I do.
[Her nails tap against the screen of her PCD a little nervously before she finally looks over at him, clearly upset, but firm, at the same time.]
Toushirou would rather die himself than put me in any amount of danger that I couldn't handle. And if I thought I couldn't handle it, I would have told you regardless of what I was ordered. I wouldn't go on a suicide mission and not tell anyone I care about.